Hi everyone, how is it going?
I’m still settling into my new life here in Alvdal. I like the house, and have already painted my room and ordered a new wallpaper. It’s this one, isn’t it lovely? I have a great, big teak shelving unit which I think will look really gorgeous with it.I’ve also been thinking a lot about gardening, but I haven’t done much about it because I’m lacking the confidence to get stuck in with something that I don’t have the skills or experience to handle! There’s a really lovely garden here, with loads of rose bushes and nice, quite big lawns, and I would love to make a flower bed, but I’m worried about digging up the earth and making it look bad. Maybe I’ll just get some pots with earth in them to start with. We’ll see.
I’m practicing driving a lot, and reading for the theory test. I want to get my licence this summer, because with my new librarian job I need to travel to different schools and when the winter comes I won’t want to cycle through the snow!
Tomorrow me and my mum are driving back to our family house in Bergen for my nephew’s birthday party, so it’ll be back to living out of a suitcase this weekend, but I think it’ll be a lovely time.
Things are moving quite slowly for me now, but I’m really enjoying the pace. My life has been full of upheavals, grief and confusion for a year, and now my mind needs some time and space to settle. A few months ago I would have been giving myself a hard time for letting a week or so slip by without doing very much, but now I know that it’s healthy to give yourself a break, to sleep in and then spend the day relaxing, drinking coffee and watching your favourite TV shows.
I saw my psychologist yesterday, and she says that the mind can be exhausted for a really long time after a psychosis. On top of that I’d been travelling for six weeks before coming here last week, so it’s no wonder I’ve needed a breather.
I’ll leave you with another picture of my beautiful wallpaper!