I’m very happy to say that I feel very happy. I’ve had the most wonderful day. It started at five am, when I got out of bed. My dad and I had breakfast together before driving out to the airport. Being awake really early in the morning felt good, and it made me realise just how much I want to get a job again, something to do, something to fill my day with meaning. Being up and about at the start of the day and getting things done feels great.
My flight was fine. I was a little nervous about it, not because I’m scared of flying, but because I can’t just go home if I start feeling bad. However, I listened to a Harry Potter audiobook and took it easy.
Getting to my grandparents was lovely, it was so nice to see them again and to catch up on what’s been going on.
Then around two I went out again, to Oxford Street, where I did a bit of shopping, then went to my old beauty salon. I’ve had my nails and hair done, and it just feels really good to have done something nice for myself. Now I’m sitting in a bar I used to go to and enjoying life in way I haven’t done in I don’t know how long.
Being in London again feels amazing. I’m thinking that I really want to move back, maybe in 2018, in the New Year. I feel really relieved because until now I’ve worried that London was lost for me, that I couldn’t get it back. But being here today has made me realise that it’s all still here. Just waiting for me to return. And it will still be here in a year, or two years, or however long it takes me to get well enough to live here again. When I am ready, London will be there.